Creepy Hearts

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So tonight I’m calling all astronauts
All the lonely people that the world forgot
If you hear my voice, come pick me up
Are you out there?
‘Cause you’re all I’ve got!

Astronaut, Simple Plan

Hey Dithi,
This chutti letter’s for you.
Firstly, let’s acknowledge the fact that we haven’t seen each other from the past 10 months or so. And that one time you made a plan of visiting me in the hostel, the whole world was hit by a pandemic and was abruptly shut down.
We planned on meeting after the lockdown and this flood of exams and practicals knocked on our doors uninvited.
Yet, you made sure to keep our friendship going headstrong through all these days filled with “when will I leave home aaa” and “I feel so dead sitting at home all day long aaa” moments.
With your nice little sketch of us both, and a webtoon character representation of me, you gave me small bursts of happiness here and there, that I didn’t know I so badly needed.

I need pastries. And pizza. When are we going out again?
I don’t care what you say, this art looks as good as the Midnight Poppy webtoon thingy. <3<3

When it came to days involving my meltdowns and zombie days filled with an overwhelming sense of self hatred and guilt concerning my productivity at work, you were always there to guide me and calm me down, saying it’s all going to work out fine and that you were proud of me for having to deal with these dark spirals of feelings all on my own, courageously.
Most of the times, I never know what I needed to hear in order to calm my mind numbing emotions, until I hear it from you. And for a moment there, everything looks hopeful again.
I could never be grateful enough for you for being there for me during those dark times and I wholeheartedly love you for that.

I’m not sure how much of a help I am during your tough days, but I hope to try. Try to make you feel better just like you would, every single time I come to you with my problems and worries and you tell me it’s all going to work out fine.
I wish I was as convincing and empathetic as you at times.

It’s been more than four years since I sat down next to you in class like a creep, and initiated our first conversation where I kept ranting on and on about Amsterdam and champagne, whilst you looked at me thinking, why is this woman conversing with me so much when we haven’t even met before ever.
You’re very much aware of everything that followed next.
I would like to make it clear that no band had ever made me feel so many emotions all at once as much as Simple Plan had and I have to thank you for that. (Okay, One direction a little bit. But you get my point.)

And I most definitely meant it in KVR’s math class that day, when I’d said that if I were a guy, I’d totally date you, cause have you seen you?
Yeah, okay you might be a huge narc and you occasionally flirt with Ann and Mrudu and a couple of other girls, but you’re MY narc. Remember that!

Hope we’ll stay strong like this, despite the number of friends we make on our way. Cause despite who comes and goes, and what happens or doesn’t, you’re stuck with this mopey little piece of hot mess for a best friend and ain’t nobody going to change that for the better. Heh
(Joergen’s going to be suuuuper jealous about this letter, but when did we ever care for that dumbface.
Side note to joergen: Please don’t leave me after reading this •́‿ ,•̀
I mean, I have Dithi, but you’ll be a loner, that’s why I’m saying. Heh)

Also, since I’d promised you I’d make something nice for you in return for all your super duper art work, I gave Canvas painting a shot, but that being my second attempt so far, it turned out to be bleh. No way in hell was I going to give that to you.
Joergen suggested I write a poem for you, but I really wasn’t in the mood for it.
I mean what would I write anyway?

Hey there Dithimaaaa
What’s it like in New York city?
I’m a thousand miles away
But, girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes, you do
Time square can’t shine as bright as you
I swear, it’s true

That was super cheesy.
Also that song is restricted to Joergen and I’ll be murdered if I use that on you. So, no.
For you it’s going to be Loser of the Year, Summer paradise, Perfectly perfect and most importantly Love story. Heh ❤

So, yes. I tried sketching you.
And it’s just out of sheer good luck, it’s come out with expressions and a little bit close to how you look. Obviously you’re much prettier, but I just gave it a shot and I hope you like it! Yeah, I’m aware that I’ll need a lot more practice and this is absolute trash, but I USED UP HALF MY DAY TRYING TO MAKE SOMETHING NICE SO U JUST BETTER SHUT UP AND ACCEPT IT.

Thanks 🙂

I don’t care what you haters say, but dad really loved the expression and the mouth bit. So screw you all!!!

I also had plans of drawing Shin-ae and Persephone from Lore Olympus but I gave up on that, reminding myself that I shouldn’t be ruining webtoons for you XD.
Anyway, my smol little soliloquy ends here. If you got bored, you would have slept off by now. If you felt this was tear-jerking, I’d be proud of myself for doing such a good job at writing. If you felt enormous amounts of happiness and your face is lit up by a smug grin by imagining Joergen reading this and combusting into flames of jealousy, I would like to mention at this point that this whole letter was a set up, a ruse, to make sure that happens and I meant none of the cheesy things I said to you throughout this entire letter before.
Heh.
Love you!!
*Creepy hearts!*

2 Comments Add yours

  1. Firstly, this was damn sweet! ❤❤❤
    Btw Joergon, you’re gone for good now🤣🤣🤣🤣

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    1. Hehe❤️❤️❤️
      Shush, don’t instigate Joergen further🤫

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